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No pictures today!

I had an egg with a 1/4 cup of egg whites and 2 slices of turkey bacon for breakfast. It’s surprisingly filling. I had my regular snack, but my lunch I was HUNGRY. Like H.U.N.G.R.Y.!!!  I felt like that the rest of the day. I drank tons of water, ate my usual foods, but I was just hungry. My stomach was growling and everything! I went on a 4.9K walk, and I started to sweat, but when I looked at my watch, my average heart rate was only 75 bpm, and well, the calorie burn reflected that. Whenever I think of the times that I didn’t work out as hard as I could have, I get a pinch in my stomach of disappointment, but then I remind myself that in January, I didn’t exercise at all! So a 4.9K walk is a lot better than no walk at all right?

On a different non-fitness/clean eating note, I think it’s amazing how our minds can be our own worst enemies. We develop stories in our heads about what “is” and those stories (while true to us), can be totally different from another person. We see the world with a lens built from personal experience, personal bias, and beliefs. So, what makes one person lean towards negativity, and the other not? What makes a person want to be mindful, and another not? I’ve spoken to women who want to give up and throw in the towel if they don’t hit their weight-loss expectations, and other who take that same situation and see it as a challenge to try harder, find where the problem is. What makes one person “give up”, and the other “try harder”? Is it innate? Is it learned?

I’ve been reading Byron Katie’s “Love What Is”. It’s a pretty darn good book. I’ll write a blog on it eventually, but I still haven’t finished it as it takes a lot of work … to do … The Work (this is a mental process to help undercover assumptions and false mental statements that we don’t challenge regularly). So far, it’s been teaching me that our world, our lives, our happiness all depends on our perceptions of events. As hard of a pill it is to swallow, no one makes us sad or unhappy, we do that to ourselves through our thoughts. On the flip-side, no one can make us happy, only we can do that for ourselves. I’m learning to get my body fit and get my eating on track, so I figure now’s a good time to take responsibility, stop blaming others, and work on undercovering the multitude of assumptions I make each and everyday.

Seriously though, interval jogs for 5K is looking a lot more inviting right now!